Insomnia. Stress. Depression.

Make it go away.
I'm tired of this bitch always being there but I still can't sleep.
My eyes refuse to close like a window without glass.
They ache and tire of exhaustion of spilling so many tears.
There's enough here that it's clogging my ear on my pillow here.

There is no word in the English language that can ease my suffering.
All I can do is hope, pray, and wait.
I needed someone to hug...
But you aren't here.
My teddy is all to suffice but it cannot compare to the warmth of your embrace.

So many words swarm in my head.
She wants me gone so why is she pulling me down and preventing me from soaring?
Mothers are supposed to teach their young to fly.
Not break their wings.

You don't know what else to do for now so instead you sit there,
Uttering soft words over the phone such as,
"I love you"
and
"Im sorry"
but it can only numb the pain for so long until it happens again.

Forgive me.
Maybe I'm not good enough.
I know I love you and I know who I am I just don't know where I belong.
So here I am laying.
This cold bed and stale air urging depression to take over again.

Don't let me go back there.
Don't want to be the victim of a mental disability.
Please don't let me hurt again.
I don't want to cry anymore.
Make it go away.